I think everyone feels this way, at least a little bit, but I don’t really feel wanted by anyone. One reason why I like being alone is because I don’t have to please anyone. I don’t know if anyone really likes me or if I’m just tolerated because I stick around, and no matter how much people enjoy being alone, sometimes you need someone there. I feel like I’m that friend that’s just there a lot.
I try really hard to make people feel like they mean a lot to me because I don’t want them to feel this way, especially because I CONSTANTLY feel like I’m a mooch. I don’t have a car, I can’t drive, I’m poor as fuck, there is basically no reason to hang out with me… So I feel like I need to show people I sincerely like them because I lack all the usual shit that come with friendship. people have to go out of their way to be with me and I want them to know I appreciate it. sometimes i think i suck at it.